Am I Doing This Right?

So, here I am with my all new, all improved blog and it seems the first few post-worthy thoughts out of my head and through my finger tips are filled with  self-doubt.

I’m in a phase of “is this right?” I second guess everything I do lately. Here are a few of the things that rumble through my brain on a regular basis:

Am I too strict with them?

Do I trust them to make good choices?

Should I allow them to watch this?

Should I talk to them about this?

Should I laugh about this with them or in front of them?

Should I let them see me cry about this?

Do they need to know what my worries are?

Should I work on basketball skills with him?

Should I help her put make-up on?

Was I too hard on him about his homework?

Should I be harder on her about her homework?

Do they really need cell phones?

How much do I need to talk about drugs, bullying, (s-e-x), depression, peer pressure and popularity with them?

Do I talk enough about their being self-confident and self-assured?

Do they know I’m their biggest fan?

Do they know how much I love them?

Do they know how badly I want what is best for them?

Do they know that I will accept them wholly and completely for who they are and who they will one day become?

I guess ultimately what it comes down to is, “am I doing this right?” Some days are frustrating without a parenting manual, but then again…I’m really not one to sit and flip through a manual before attacking a project, so why talk about something that I would ignore anyway?

Parenting is that thing that challenges me and makes me question every decision I make.  So most days, I just have to trust this is the right way to do this right now. Hopefully God shows grace to both my kids and to me and in the long run we all come through loving each other more, in and through all of my flaws and mistakes as their momma.