Storms Are Refreshing

We had another crazy storm here in Colorado last night. I don’t know if you guys have these where you live, but you can stand at the doorway and watch the rain come pouring straight down…Literally in sheets, then, next thing you know, there’s hail falling all over the place. For a minute you try to think of how you can possibly save your garden from the damage of the hail, or if you have a car laying outside, you sacrifice your noggin to get your car in and away from the hail damage.

Soon enough the storm passes and you’re left standing there staring at the newly vibrant looking grass, trees and flowers. The air is immediately cooler and you can sense that everything is clean.  I love walking outside after the rain. I am able to breathe just a little easier and drink in the freshness of everything around me.

I’m thankful for  Colorado rains… just like the earth, my soul is refreshed after a good rain.

I’m not an “Englishman in New York”

I’m not an “Englishman in New York,” but am an Indian-woman in Colorado.

Mountain Creek

I’m in the mountains today…I love the mountains.

When I’m in need of a break from the harshness of life…I run to the mountains.

As soon as I had my first car…I drove myself in that little old beat up car straight to “my” mountains.

When I need to think…I escape to the silence that I can only find in high altitude and pine trees.

I think it’s a funny thing…a girl from coastal south India who finds strength, peace and balance in the mountains.

So…where do you go to find peace and balance?

On a Lighter Note

my loves

There are two people in my life who make me laugh every single day of my life: MY KIDS!!!

I feel like you should know this about them…they are HI-larious.

They make faces, they crack jokes. They know when to be funny and when to make others laugh. Most of all they know how to make me laugh.

Today, I am so thankful for my silly, funny kiddies…my sweet babies.

My sweet kids

Asking Why

Do you ever ask the, “Why God?” questions?

It’s been a week filled with those for me. Really, it’s not even me personally that’s going through this difficult time, but I’m still asking the questions. I would really appreciate it if you would go to this link and read about my friend Chad, and his brother Ryan to better understand the situation and why I’m asking why.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/ryanandchadarnold/journal

So, you see, a brother did an amazing and heroic thing. He laid down his life for his friend/brother…he sacrificed all he had.

And yet, here I sit asking Why God, Why?I don’t have answers, but I know that God is big enough to hear my frustrations and my questions and still be God. I’m trying to sort things out in brain that make no logical sense to me. I like to put things in groups and columns and sections, but I can’t…everything’s just a big jumble of emotions; however,  I maintain that God is sovereign and even through something like this, He draws us to Himself.

Right now, my heart aches with my friend’s family, but I am praying for peace, strength and ultimately joy for all of the Arnold family. Also asking you to join me in praying for Chad to make a full recovery in body, mind and spirit as well.

Psalm 143: 4, 5, 8

So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.

I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.



False Summits, False Truths, Reality and God

Bottom of the Incline

There’s this place that we pseudo athletic types (and real athletic types too) in Colorado Springs like to go called the “Incline.” It’s the remains of an old roadbed from a scenic railway. It’s not that long of a climb…just a little under a mile of straight climb…actually, it’s got an average grade of a little over 40%, but the steepest section is at a 68% grade. So, when you stand at the bottom and look up, you think how hard can it be? Well, when you realize that you will gain over 2000 ft in elevation in less than a mile…well, lemme just say, it gets your heart pumping!

Bottom of the Incline

So, the other day I “did” the incline and as I was climbing it, I was really seeking God’s wisdom for my life. I was in a mode of climbing in every sense. There were moments where everything in my body was burning from exertion, but I felt like I had to keep going. Since I’ve done this little hike a few times, I know that there’s a false peak that you see from the bottom. I also know that there are people doing this climb for the first time just trying to summit the false peak thinking they’ll reach the top.

Looking down from the false peak

I’ve been on a steady uphill climb in my life for a while now, so often when I’m in the mountains, God really uses those times to show me the life analogy . It hit me hard that day that God allows me to climb each step, sometimes with excruciating pain so that I will appreciate the true peak when I finally reach it. There have been lots of false summits in my life in the past few weeks…actually the past few years. Some of these false peaks have shown up in my life through family, work, finances, personal, even spiritual issues. Along with the false peaks have been false truths. Stuff I’ve told myself, sometimes stuff others have said about me or to me…those things have become the stumbling blocks as I’ve been trying to climb…getting in my way, setting me back, making me question why I’m climbing in the first place. Sometimes I catch myself wishing to get to the false peak so that I can then give up and quit by selling myself short and saying, “well, at least I tried.”

I’m telling you, I’m in a strange place in my life because that last climb showed me so clearly how the false summits and false truths set me back for a time and possibly even for a season, but the reality is that God is still God. The same one who created the mountains is making the way for me by allowing me to take my direction from him one step at a time. People may offer explanation or discounts or even blame, but the reality in my life is that God controls my life. I will make it to the top, I have that assurance because God’s truth will always prevail, and when I get there…the view will be so worth it!

View from the top

“Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains, your justice like the great deep. O LORD, you preserve both man and beast.”
Psalm 36:6

“Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,”
Psalm 46:2